Parties, Concerts, Gingerbread Decorating, Christmas Time is here!

Christmas Eve

I must say that I am so glad Rob is now home with us for three days...Yeah!!! It has been a long week with the littles. Now we are heading out to take everyone out to eat Chinese with Nama and Pa and then Santa comes tonight!! Gabby told me yesterday we need to build a chimney for Santa but she was satisfied when I told her Daddy would greet Santa. I know I will hear the reindeer on the roof. Lots of pics to come...

Sesame Street Live and Hunter's Dedication

Frustrated...

Every once in awhile I have a pity party for myself about the embryos. Then I buck up and move on. I never really share it with anyone except maybe Rob. I can't change what has happened. I just get frustrated and honestly I get frustrated because no one knows how I feel. I'm just not and neither is Rob as vocal about issues plaguing us. I just hate it when people play a victim. I see it way too often. I'm too independent and selfless to constantly wallow in grief. Usually I make the choice to move on, I don't let others dictate my life. Life doesn't grant pardons so you move on. But every once in awhile, I get searing angry. Maybe I'm just frustrated about other things and maybe I just have PMS but every so often I just get downright mad that I had to make such a choice and we will never raise those babies. It is so hard as a mother to let go of something that feels not just close to you but a part of you. It reminds me of that aching empty feeling I experienced with the miscarriages. The loss of something that takes so much a part of you with it! I'm proud of my decision and I know it is something that I can live with and am proud to live with but man is it hard at times. It feels good to get it on paper.

Tomorrow is another day...

Hunter at Chuck E Chesses!

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More updates

Hunter now says the following words: window, IPOD (too funny, he learned this from sissy), mommy and for the first time today came searching for me saying "Moommmy?" (melt my heart), Go potty (he loves to walk Ginger and tell her to go potty), gum, sissy, night night, bye bye, apple, tv, wreath, blanket, ball...now some of these are only audible to me and sissy but nonetheless I love to hear it!

Gabby has become such a little lady lately and says criss cross applesauce and says okay Mommy, lets say it together! Too cute! She has been teaching Hunter to say words on the way to school, another thing that melts my heart! She says it and he repeats it. It still fascinates me how much he learns from her.

New pics!